…to think I was UGLY

In early college days, I was not confident with the way I look. Seeing mestiza girls and tall ones in school made me insecure sometimes. You see, I am a petite lady, standing only few inches more than five feet. Not too fair, not too dark in complexion and still not recognizable. Just an ordinary lass!

And worst, those were my acne years, too. I agonized every time zits appear. Adolescence, stress and school works made them grow in numbers. Consulting the derma helped, but still, if it’s time for it to pop up – just let it be.

That’s not all! I wished I had bigger eyes, my lips to have better shape that what I have, and not too wide fingernails which I got from my mother.

But beauty is not only about how you look, but how you feel about yourself. I realized I was not my parents’ problem when it comes to studies. Having good grades and performance in school which other girls would like to accomplish. I am an architect, who aims more and wants to do well with her career. Who would not be proud of that?

I figured out how beautiful I am inside and out. I can treat people well., learned to keep my feet on the ground and keep my values anywhere I go. My significant other said he loved me more for being responsible and well-mannered.

From then on, I’m beginning to like me, be comfortable with myself and be of who I am. Who wouldn’t want to have a well-proportioned body? I don’t get problems on adding more on my front and behind. I’m content the way my arms and legs are. And a collarbone and a shoulder that a boyfriend admires and I think the good features of being slim.

So what if I don’t get taller and appears to be mestiza and attractive? Big guys like cute girls anyway. And I’m done worrying with my pimples, too.

So what if my eyes are chinita? I am just simply Asian. Just straight lashes which matches my eyes.

So what if my lips’ shape don’t catch any man’s attention? At least, I speak kind words and smile a lot.

I like being myself. Smart and bubbly. Crazy and sexy. I’m driven. Focused. I overcome trials and obstacles. I am a woman of strength. Who says I’m ugly?